Decicions...

February 20th - March 10th, 2026

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Summary:

Well, I should really clarify that this blog update is really not gonna be anything too fancy, I just think ive been through a bit of a more interesting period right now and i feel like it would be best if I commemorate it by writing here...this one is a bit more hearthful so, thanks for reading!

How was I feeling about 28 days ago?

 To say it briefly, i was stressed and confused... to clarify the sequence of events, It all started with my mom, really rather in an inoccent matter, asking me again about Uni, and if I'm decided. Which really I cant say is something new, Ive been asked this countless times, but for some reason, this calling was a lot more powerful than in the past. That day, the day she asked I felt off. The next one too. and to add fuel to the fire, i rewatched Beastars, a show that not only is really dear to me, being about "surviving" not only in a different society, but in a different mental state from home. This really needs some context from the

to understand, i think? Or maybe im just delusional and too easily influencable by forms of media such as shows 😭

 ANYWAYS, this clearly lead to a lot of overthinking, that segwayed into other subjects too, such as friendhip and the people I surround myself with! I did my research related to Uni, and calmed down by the end of the weekend, but friendships and specifically childhood friendships were REALLY on my mind after that. For a few days, that was the thing bothering me, I was so blue at one point that i just accepted the fact that I have not much of a past, but thankfully, as most things, the main factor to feel better is reahing out and asking.

Which i did. I talked to a classmate of mine, whom i was neighbours with as a kid, and it really made me realise, that I do have a meaningful childhood, probably like everyone else, but since i didnt really talk about it, and dont have a lot of connections to it in the present (toys, photos, memories) I kinda forgot, and it became really rather hard to remember by myself. Thanks to my friend, P.L. I felt a lot, and i mean it a lot better. before that day, i legit could not fall asleep due to my stomach doing backflips from the emotions i was feeling. Basically a mix of euphoria, nostalgia and even jealousy.

Thanks to me asking, my week pretty much turned around. I looked for more leads to make me remember, and I made a personal timeline in my head! And now, at the time of writing, I feel great about myself and my childhood. Im proud and thankful of where I am and what I've been through, Really! Its truly such a wonderful feeling that I KNOW who i was, I remember what I was like!

Actually doing something about it:

 What did i do to further reassure myself when it comes to my future, and University? On my week off from school, I went to Cluj to check out the possible Universities i could go to, and talk with the people at the uni and stuff, and to be honest, it was awesome, it made me feel a lot better.

  Legit, that city is uncomparable to any others ive been in. I can confidently say the age range of that city is something like this:

Basically full of young people and like NOONE over 30 (this is exagerated obviously)

  as for what major did i decide on picking, most likely its gonna be economical studies and economical management, and i have not only a bias, but i also did my research. I visited those few days the

Faculty of history, which was definitely the prettiest one, with massive classrooms, really tall roofs and decorated pylons and statues everywhere.

Faculty of sociology was the next one I visited, and the one i expected to like the most, but I was wrong. even if the clases are probably good, the building itself lacks. I hoped id like it but its a small three stopry flat with nothing unique, situated in a random neighbourhood. Doesnt really scream university vibe ngl. not last, I also visited the

Faculty of geography, which tbh underwhelmed me the most, it was tiny with a selling point being the fact that its located in a botanical garden (which was not that pretty), and it was also kinda ruggedy and ugly, thats also where I learned that a really small amount of people who come to these profiles come because its their passion, more because its really easy... Lastly, I visited

Faculty of economical managent and studies and that one blew me away. the difference between this one and the geography one is insane. This one seemed very attractive because its realistic for me. I can get into that one! Its the biggest, about the size of the history one, and the most modern of them all, glass panes everywhere, very friendly atmosphere everywhere. It felt like university!

Some other particularities i did/wanna talk about:

  Got my hands on an Ao3 account! It took about two weeks until I got my registration code, so far im really enjoying "my stay", its a really good platform and one that has to be appreciated while its still here. Stuff like it could be deleted any day. I read mostly Beastars fics on it, Fluff and Slice of life about characters that didnt get much attention in the anime/manga such as Miguno and Jack.

  Drove a lot, about 1k KM since i got my license, my latest bigger drive being to Brasov last weekend with Alex, Steph and Eric. It went well!

  Gonna have a busy few days going forward... Since not only we are getting our final year pictures taken this Friday, but im also going to an outing at Carly's place from friday night to saturday. I think its gonna be loads of fun! and After that on sunday we have Slime's birthday! thats also gonna be fun :D

  Winter's finally ending and I LOVE IT, its been so hot lately, around 10-15 degrees and the suns so warm, been out a few times to my fav place, the lake

  It took me three tries to write this blog! I think it was because of the subjects i touched ⤵

  Went out to walk Carly's dogs, something that I didnt expect to like as much as I actually did. It was truly a very euphoric feeling, I realised i dont actually talk about it much, but i had a dog for a few years, sadly he died from an attack around a corner and couldnt be saved, he didnt make it. I really really wanted a dog as a child and Gomboc was really dear to me, i was devastated after him passing... and fairly speaking, after Gomboc, we also moved away and our new apartment deosnt allow pets, and we just werent in a good enough mental state (?) to get a pet at the moment anyway, so my family just dropped it. Going to walk Carly's dogs was the first time i held a dog on a leash after Gomboc, and I'm dead serious right now. How come i have not walked a dog for a good 5 years, I have no ideea but I can confidently say I clearly forgot what it felt like having a dog and Toby (the dog) was such a beautiful, blissful throwback. I cant wait to go walk him again ♥

I cant wait to get a dog once I move out

My Youtube discoveries these past few or so days:

as you may also see, seemingly a lot less than last few times haha...

here's a list of awesome YT vids i watched, that I think you guys SHOULD check out!

Worst Hobbies ⬅ I really like Ice Cream Sandwich!

World Of Warcraft Should Be Dead By Now ⬅ BTW i got a month subscription on this game lol!

Angriest Woman Ever ⬅ Every time i watch Charlie i remmeber how much I love this man

I wrote a book. ⬅ The most casual face reveal of someone so cool ever!

Thanks a lot for reading my 20th blog update, enjoy the pics and see u next month!